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Four Days Along...

Four days along and I'm still feeling good after my chiro appointment - still can't feel my big toes, but that's stress for you. LOL 8D

There have been ups and downs but I took the advice of a very wise and good friend, got some sound legal advice and now have a very clear picture of where I stand especially as far as my children are concerned.

I've been sleeping a lot better since I can tell you! 8D

Finished slightly redoing a kit that I finished but never released before I retired back in April.... did that even make sense? LOL

This pc is giving me huge amounts of schtick with FTP connections and I need to reformat the hard-drive, yesterday even, so there's only one thing up in the store at PBP for tomorrow.  Sincere thanks to PBP's Annette who has very kindly helped me along with that upload!!!

The good news is that I have organised to access the internet from another location so will be able to get more product uploaded... soon-ish. Yay! 8D

Week before last I decided to change my surname as part of journey into my new life, only it's not going to be back to my maiden name.  Have been trying to find a nice alternative.... Richards is kinda sounding nice to me right now...  whaddaya reckon?  Any suggestions?

Hope that you're having a great week - hump day tomorrow then the short dash for the weekend.

Thought for Today ::

Your soul doesn't care what you do for a living - and when your life is over, neither will you. Your soul cares only about what you are being while you are doing whatever you are doing.

Neale Donald Walsch  ~ American Author and Spiritual Teacher

Taking it One Day at a Time

Tonight I finished up a little project that has been on my HD for ages... yay!!!

I really love how this has come together ~ it will be in the shop at PBP next week. :)

Today has been great for me; got a tonne of stuff done and even had a visit with my v.hunky chiropractor.... I feel sooooo good right now. :)

Tomorrow is set to be a very full day ~ TGIF ~ see you on the weekend.

Thought for Today ::

Most of us miss out on life's big prizes. The Pulitzer. The Nobel. Oscars. Tonys. Emmys. But we're all eligible for life's small pleasures. A pat on the back. A kiss behind the ear. A four-pound bass. A full moon. An empty parking space. A crackling fire. A great meal. A glorious sunset. Hot soup. Cold beer. Don't fret about copping life's grand awards. Enjoy its tiny delights. There are plenty for all of us.

Author Unknown  ~ But Very Much Appreciated!

Today

Today..........

Today has been hell; really the hell started yesterday afternoon.

I completely melted and fell apart into little blubbering pieces all over the floor yesterday.  Just wasn't coping.

I was able to stay the night and today at a very good friend's house - gave me some breathing room and a chance to pull all the pieces of myself back together.

Tonight I'm back home and feeling calmer although not completely back to myself yet.  Anxiety is my biggest problem.... I haven't been able to feel my toes for a week and a half and my heart is racing all the time.

Still I am busy putting in place all the things that need to happen and change to bring the boys and me into the future... taking it one day at a time...

On a VERY bright and different note - I am returning to designing and more excitingly selling through PickleBerryPop again.  Annette has been absolutely amazing by allowing me to set up shop there even though the shop's designer roll is already full.  I am truly blessed ~ thank you Annette!

I also want to thank each and every one of you who have rung, emailed me and left comments here on the blog - you are all amazing and the outpouring of loving support and encouragement has truly warmed my heart.  Thank you!!!

So.... busy redoing previews and packaging products ready for launch at PBP on 1st July... YAY!!! :)

Thought for Today ::

We cannot give what we do not have. We cannot bring peace to the world if we ourselves are not peaceful. We cannot bring love to the world if we ourselves are not loving. Our true gift to ourselves and others lies not in what we have but in who we are.
Marianne Williamson  ~ American Activist, Author and Lecturer

Tonight I Feel the Need

Tonight I feel the need to post to this much loved but sadly long neglected blog.

Life has thrown me a curve ball that I totally had not expected - my husband of nearly 18 years and partner of 22 years decided to betray our wedding vows and commenced an affair several weeks ago with a woman who for the past 4 years I had considered to be a very close friend.

I am devastated and in shock; whilst our marriage had definitely not been close for a number of years, this act of deceit by my ex-husband has left me with a massively confused welter of mixed and conflicting emotions that are almost overwhelming.

At the moment I have no idea how I am going to cope with the financial needs of supporting my children...

BUT

I know for sure that I will provide for my family and that my children and I together will be financially far better off than ever before.

I am the rock of loving support for my children and myself.

I am the font of nurturing care for my children and myself.

I have my children's and my own best interests at heart.  I am their willing advocate, ready and able to to protect them and ensure their needs are fully and appropriately met, tooth and claw if needs be.

I am whole and happy and perfectly able to move forward into a bright new future, smiling, laughing and joyful all the way.

I am strong.

I am single.

I am woman hear me roar!!! :)

I had thought that my creative spirit had been stultified as a result of what has been happening the last few days, but as it turns out, that is not the case:  today I was able to effortlessly create a page expressing where I am right now in regards to my marriage....

And now, heading to the kitchen to open and delicately sample a bottle of something tasty, collecting my wedding dress and a box of matches, and then promptly proceeding outside (with dignity and decorum of course) to celebrate the beginning of my new life with a private little bonfire ritual... for one.  ;)

Thought for Today ::

Drop the idea of becoming someone, because you are already a masterpiece. You cannot be improved. You have only to come to it, to know it, to realise it.

Osho, 1931-1990 ~ Indian Spiritual Teacher